how is this matter going to end?

i just can't find the way. i am done. TIRED. lot of thing i've done, but doesn't work. y y y y y y?
y is my life always been tortured this way??? y i cant even have happy ending with u???? u noe that i just wanna b with u!!!! but y this thng keep happening??? y???? yeaaa... i create all this mess!!