when u walk away..

i think this gonna give me very BIG IMPACT. hurmm. i dunnu y. but yea. it is bleeding in here. very badly.i dunnu what else should i do. yea. move on. it is for easy people around me advised me. but i am the 1 who gonna face it. almost a week i guess. i am still crying. crying crying n crying. i just dun noe y. hurmmm. i hate this situation aite now. basically yea, i do love him so much. n every time when i saw his face, no doubt, i miss him badly. hurmmm  i couldn't sleep.get easily distracted. every time when i wanna close my eyes, i just pray  to God that all these are just gonna b my nightmare. BAD NIGHTMARE. i sleep.n when i'm awake, for a lil moment, i feel yea, it is nightmare. but then i realized that i am not. it is reality. y? y? y? he just walk away from my life that easy. why? WHY? y he did this to me now? WHY? i give all my heart to him, but he just walk away after he have won my heart. when the he is equal to my heartbeats, n now, he make it stop. why? i  can feel as if, just last night u cuddle me tight n sty awake with me. still not to forget, when i am at ur place, i had stomachache, u b there with me. beside me worried bout me. it's all still new dear. i can't let it go of off my mind. but this thing happen too fast. u walk away. what do i deserve actually? i just cant stand with this situation. y can't u heal back my heart for REAL? why u have to walk away n happy laughing while i am here are dying. why he did this to me God? is it bcz of i am his enemy ex-gf? he just wanna give a revenge towards his enemy through me? but y me? cant he feel all my loves, my attention my laugh, everything are sincere from my very bottom of my heart? can ths b  totally a NIGHTMARE to me? can someone just wake me up from this scary NIGHTMARE? hurmmmm
MUHAMMAD AKMAL ABDUL TALIB,
i hope that u r happy with what u have done to me. thanks cz at least U let me noe what is love all about.the memories, the stars,  faces,friends,funny jokes,teases, house, college. thanks lot dear. may god bless u someday.